Afraid to Go to College (lifestyle)

(Credits)

-----written by tgthewriter1
------employed by Ashford University



Afraid of Going to College
When I first went to college, I was very scared. I had a good reason to be scared because I was only 18 years old. I was scared about making new friends. I never had too many friends. Next, I was scared of living up to everyone’s expectations. Society expects you to do certain things while attending college. I was also afraid of not finishing school. I didn’t have much support to begin with. Most people thought I was a lost cause. After a couple years, I realized I wanted to finish college and become something better.
Going to college meant that I might need new friends. Making new friends was something I was not good at doing. In high school, I would find a group of people to sit with at the lunch table. I would talk and become friends with them. But, I felt like I couldn’t sit with random people at the lunch table in college. Why did I feel like this? I do not really know why. I thought people would automatically shut me down in college. The fear I felt while being humiliated in college was great. I didn’t want people to make fun of me. We all have these childish feelings that we need to get rid of. After talking to some people, I realized that there was nothing to really be afraid of.
The people I talked to in college were similar to me and made me realize that I was afraid of nothing. We all had the same problems in college. We all were trying to figure out what to do with our lives. We all were nervous when talking to girls. We all did not know what to wear anymore. In college, I wanted to be Mr. Perfect, but I didn’t have to be. You don’t have to be perfect to make new friends. All you really need to do is to be your self. There was a few people in college who didn’t like me. I usually do not get along with people who don’t like me. So, I stay away from the drama people. I was afraid to make friends in college, but I learned to over come my fear once I talked to a few people.
Expectations, almost scared me to death in college. Everybody who goes to college has crazy expectations. Some expectations come from parents. Others come from social media and society. While I was attending college, people expected me to study and get good grades. They expected me to be the best in every class. People expected me to have the best grades in college. Good grades might not be something everybody would call expectations but I was expected to have them. So, I was terrified of getting an F on any assignment. When I did get an F, my heart was beating really fast. I could hear it beating in my chest. I became filled with such fear. I was afraid if people knew I would get made fun of. I found other people who also got bad grades and college. I learned to relax about my high grade expectation.
Another expectation that people gave me was dating a lot of girls in college. Now, I didn’t want people talking about me so I asked out a bunch of girls. I only ended up dating a few of them. I couldn’t believe I was afraid of girls back then. When I was asking girls out back then, I was so scared that I tried really hard to be perfect. However, being perfect does not get the results. I was extremely nervous talking to girls. I believed the main reason I was nervous was because I trying to impress my friends, my family, and society. I wasn’t asking girls out to impress my self. I was doing something so I could brag about it. Later, I realized what I was doing and decided to only talk to girls when I feel like it. What I was doing was very stupid. Trying to impress people who do not care about me. The expectation that I had to date a lot of girls was stupid. But, I was afraid of it. Later, I decided to get over that expectation by not caring about other people’s expectations. I was afraid of it but I needed to overcome it. I soon realized that I was an adult and what I do is my business. I don’t need to date a bunch of girls to feel important. You only need one girl to feel important.
Not being able to finish school was something I was also afraid of. In college, there were points that made me feel like college was not important. Points that caused me to have doubts. I wasn’t getting paid much to go to college. I wasn’t always getting good grades. I wasn’t being supported enough to go to college. I was afraid that I was going to drop out of college. There was so many things in my life going on. I was trying to balance things and I got frustrated. Balancing things was driving me crazy in college. I gained a huge fear of dropping out because I had a hard time balancing things. In any event, I always had a heard time balancing things. So, I had to figure out a way to overcome that fear which is to finish school no matter what happens next. In life, you can’t quit your job because your love life is not working out or because someone did something embarrassing to you. You have to finish your career goals because life goes on. I felt like I needed to move up in the world one way or another.
While I was going to college, I had many things on my mind that mad me afraid. I was afraid of not finishing school because I had a hard time balancing things. I was afraid of living up to everybody’s expectations because I wanted everybody to like me. I was afraid of making new friends because I didn’t want to get humiliated. I was afraid of a lot of things when I first went to college, but I figured out how to overcome it. I overcame all my fears by realizing one simple thing. I realize that my life is my business. If I do not want to live up to everybody’s expectations, then I need to learn how to live with it. Life is full of possibilities.